My Dilemma!

So.. I am really enjoying my hair journey but im so conflicted! I love learning all this new information! I get so much help and so many links to more information!! Anyway... Now that I see all these challenges and all these things i can do with my hair I want to try them, but i put my hair in braids.. :crying:... now this isnt a bad thing at all but it prevents me from doing things... I want to deal with my own hair and even though i said i wanted to go natural I dont think i am ready for that... I want my hair to grow out and i want to use my natural pattern but I dont think i can do that. I am debating on whether i am going to get texlaxed now (Monday to be exact) or if i am going to wait until december. Also im wondering if i should take the braids out and try to deal with natural but i dont think i will stay that way long. SO there is my dilemma. Hopefully this works out for the best.